I'm Free.....Free Fallin'
God has been good to me. Without going too deep into things, I will share that the Lord has removed some obstacles from my life many times over. When Dennis Cramer came the first time to CFC-Knightstown and gave Jason and me a word about our lives (here's a hint...he said we were the Cleaver's). After all the fun stuff, he said something directed at me. Now, the "ears" in my heart heard Dennis Cramer telling everyone about all the crap that I have suffered through in my life. When he was speaking I was listening with my heart, not my ears. Later, when I replayed the recording of the prophecy, I listened with my ears and realized that He (Abba, Father) hadn't hung me out to dry as I had thought. He had allowed me to hear exactly what I needed to hear in order to give all things over to Him to allow Him to complete a work in me. So, at this point, God stripped me of the pain of my past. He repetitively told me, "It's behind you, it's behind you, it's behind you." Very powerful words when one considers lies in the past.
Anyway, I thought God was finished. And really, He probably was, except that I allowed the fear and pain to return in greater power. Last July, Jason and I went on vacation (with Shep) to Charleston. While we were there, God repeated the miracle. He allowed me to give up my past and to really be refreshed and I was renewed on vacation.
Then we returned back home. In a matter of months, it had returned. This time not only was there fear and pain, but also rejection and bitterness. Greetings to these evildoers. But I allowed them to slip in and just suffered through it for awhile. I can praise God that while I was a teenager, He delivered me from suicidal thoughts. That in itself is a miracle. I have suffered with the pain, fear, bitterness and rejection since soon after I went back to work. Last Wednesday night at prayer meeting, God really removed all of it. Even the memory of being hurt is gone. I could physically feel God removing the roots from my heart. It hurt...it really hurt. But I feel so good now! I'm free!
Anyway, I thought God was finished. And really, He probably was, except that I allowed the fear and pain to return in greater power. Last July, Jason and I went on vacation (with Shep) to Charleston. While we were there, God repeated the miracle. He allowed me to give up my past and to really be refreshed and I was renewed on vacation.
Then we returned back home. In a matter of months, it had returned. This time not only was there fear and pain, but also rejection and bitterness. Greetings to these evildoers. But I allowed them to slip in and just suffered through it for awhile. I can praise God that while I was a teenager, He delivered me from suicidal thoughts. That in itself is a miracle. I have suffered with the pain, fear, bitterness and rejection since soon after I went back to work. Last Wednesday night at prayer meeting, God really removed all of it. Even the memory of being hurt is gone. I could physically feel God removing the roots from my heart. It hurt...it really hurt. But I feel so good now! I'm free!
posted by Nichole at 9:24 PM
2 Comments:
Wow, have you read Amy's blog today? Are you sure you're not really blood related to us? I'm so glad God has freed you up. I think He has something in the works for our whole family. And your family too. He's that awesome!
Brenda
Momma Cupp,
Well...I hope we're not blood related cuz that would just be gross considering that I'm married to her brother. :) But, the Lord is not a respector of persons. What He is doing in one person in the church, He's probably doing that in another person. I'm sure that Amy and I aren't the only ones. (We're just the only ones with loud mouths who will shout about it on our blogs.) I believe that God is on the move. The waves of repentance are coming. I can't wait!
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