Why Me?
I found out some disturbing news tonight that caused me to once again ask God why I was born into my family. I won't share the news that caused me to ask the question, but here are reasons why I wonder:
I have an uncle who is still in the closet (gay), but his boyfriend is someone who would have graduated in my class (had he graduated). This is a 20-yr age difference between the two.
My family is some of the most racially discrimantory people on earth, yet my aunt has kids by 3 different black men (please note that I am not being racial by saying this...just making the point of the oxymoron white trash racial aunt getting knocked up by three different black men). One kid grew up to be heavily addicted to drugs and hooks up with any white trash girl who doesn't mind the habit. Another one grew up to have 4 kids by a few different dads, but all dads were Mexican. The third kid moved away and lives on a military base in Missouri far away from the nonsense that happens here. I'm proud of that girl!
Within the past six months, I had an aunt who was murdered by her husband. She met her husband while the two of them were in a mental hospital. Everyone I've told about that says, "Rule #1: Never marry the man you meet in the psych ward." Oh...and just in case there is any confusion, they were both crazies on meds.
As a child, I heard stories of cops being called because my uncle was throwing bricks at my aunt's head again. But, according to him, it was self defense because she came after him with the butcher knife.
Need a little more comedy? Each description above is about different aunt's and uncle's. They are all brothers and sisters, but everything above is about a different person. I have three other uncles.
One is living in Georgia and he has made a very good life for himself. He was actually the one to show me that my life could be better than the mess I grew up around. His daughter graduated with honors a few years back and has a call of God on her life. I don't know what God has called her to, but I know that His Spirit is at work within her.
Two of my other uncles have already passed away. Uncle Albin (who is the only one I shall name) passed away when I was a child. He had some physical disabilities. He got to meet Kenny Rogers through the Make-A-Wish foundation and passed away not long after that.
Another uncle lived in the Marshall Islands (way out past Hawaii kinda near Japan). He claimed to be married to the king's daughter there, but I don't really know. He worked for the US Coast Guard and seemed to work a lot. This uncle had a HUGE crush on my mom and after my dad passed away, he tried to take her as his own wife. My mom wasn't having any of that though. Where he lived, he claimed it was the custom for the brother to take care of the widow.
So let me think, yeah, I think that covered all of them. My grandma had two girls and seven boys (if I remembered all of them). But anyway, the generational curses at work in the lives of my family members have been broken from me. I will not suffer the hurt and disappointment that these dummies have put up with. I cannot say the same for my sister. We started praying a couple of weeks ago that the chains of bondage and generational curses would fall off of her as God called her to His service. Since then, her world has been shaken. Please pray for her. That's all I can say. Thanks and seriously, I want to know why on earth God placed me in the family I'm in.
I have an uncle who is still in the closet (gay), but his boyfriend is someone who would have graduated in my class (had he graduated). This is a 20-yr age difference between the two.
My family is some of the most racially discrimantory people on earth, yet my aunt has kids by 3 different black men (please note that I am not being racial by saying this...just making the point of the oxymoron white trash racial aunt getting knocked up by three different black men). One kid grew up to be heavily addicted to drugs and hooks up with any white trash girl who doesn't mind the habit. Another one grew up to have 4 kids by a few different dads, but all dads were Mexican. The third kid moved away and lives on a military base in Missouri far away from the nonsense that happens here. I'm proud of that girl!
Within the past six months, I had an aunt who was murdered by her husband. She met her husband while the two of them were in a mental hospital. Everyone I've told about that says, "Rule #1: Never marry the man you meet in the psych ward." Oh...and just in case there is any confusion, they were both crazies on meds.
As a child, I heard stories of cops being called because my uncle was throwing bricks at my aunt's head again. But, according to him, it was self defense because she came after him with the butcher knife.
Need a little more comedy? Each description above is about different aunt's and uncle's. They are all brothers and sisters, but everything above is about a different person. I have three other uncles.
One is living in Georgia and he has made a very good life for himself. He was actually the one to show me that my life could be better than the mess I grew up around. His daughter graduated with honors a few years back and has a call of God on her life. I don't know what God has called her to, but I know that His Spirit is at work within her.
Two of my other uncles have already passed away. Uncle Albin (who is the only one I shall name) passed away when I was a child. He had some physical disabilities. He got to meet Kenny Rogers through the Make-A-Wish foundation and passed away not long after that.
Another uncle lived in the Marshall Islands (way out past Hawaii kinda near Japan). He claimed to be married to the king's daughter there, but I don't really know. He worked for the US Coast Guard and seemed to work a lot. This uncle had a HUGE crush on my mom and after my dad passed away, he tried to take her as his own wife. My mom wasn't having any of that though. Where he lived, he claimed it was the custom for the brother to take care of the widow.
So let me think, yeah, I think that covered all of them. My grandma had two girls and seven boys (if I remembered all of them). But anyway, the generational curses at work in the lives of my family members have been broken from me. I will not suffer the hurt and disappointment that these dummies have put up with. I cannot say the same for my sister. We started praying a couple of weeks ago that the chains of bondage and generational curses would fall off of her as God called her to His service. Since then, her world has been shaken. Please pray for her. That's all I can say. Thanks and seriously, I want to know why on earth God placed me in the family I'm in.
posted by Nichole at 8:53 PM
3 Comments:
I believe that God placed you in that family so that you can fight the spiritual battle for them, and see them break through. That's a huge responsibility, but I think that's why you're there.
I'll be praying for your sister.
i think the general consensus is that you nicky cupp, are the mediator and the go-to girl for your family, which turns out to be a responsiblity God has given you. What if you're the only "Jesus" these people ever get a chance to see, nicky? so girl...get that attitude of determination and POWER OF THE HOLY GHOST *COME ON* and get to preachin the Word! *AMEN* you are a MIGHTY woman of God, Holy Ghost filled, (shooot, i'll preach myself happy!:) fire baptized, authoratative child of God who has divine appointments and a purpose to fulfill! RIGHT!? right. *stepping off soap-box* amen. BE BLESSED NICKY!
I agree with everyone else,Nicky. Like your Uncle you can be an example of breaking through and rising above. God has placed you there to intercede and encourage. I'm so thankful that He has also placed you in our family. I love you!
Brenda
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